I had a journey similar to you and Isaac about recognizing the illogic of so many Christian teachings. What made it all come together to me and distinguish the truth of Jesus gospel from Christianity was the Urantia Book (www.urantia.org). Are you familiar with it?
In particular, being well versed in the whole Bible, the untold story of Jesus in Part Four was an eye-opener for it rang true to the Spirit of Truth to which we all have access. I particularly identified with this statement about Jesus when he was 14 years old: “Jesus had an unerring ability for the recognition of truth, and truth he never hesitated to embrace, no matter from what source it appeared to emanate” 126:3.8 (1390.3).
If you are intrigued, this is an abridgment of that story: The Untold Story of Jesus: A Modern Biography from The Urantia Book; https://www.amazon.com/dp/0997404914.
I had a journey similar to you and Isaac about recognizing the illogic of so many Christian teachings. What made it all come together to me and distinguish the truth of Jesus gospel from Christianity was the Urantia Book (www.urantia.org). Are you familiar with it?
In particular, being well versed in the whole Bible, the untold story of Jesus in Part Four was an eye-opener for it rang true to the Spirit of Truth to which we all have access. I particularly identified with this statement about Jesus when he was 14 years old: “Jesus had an unerring ability for the recognition of truth, and truth he never hesitated to embrace, no matter from what source it appeared to emanate” 126:3.8 (1390.3).
If you are intrigued, this is an abridgment of that story: The Untold Story of Jesus: A Modern Biography from The Urantia Book; https://www.amazon.com/dp/0997404914.